Wow!! I didn't think any of you guys would know WHAT Kalamata is!! Yeah T, I eat a lot of olives but I don't look like one (although I have green eyes).
You are right with what you are saying. I have been thinking about this as well, the pattern you recognised is pretty much true. And now he is pulling back but at least he is wondering what's going on. But you know what T, I can't put up with any more of his little small talks over the phone, I can't be feeling I am giving-giving-giving to him and getting nothing back in return. And yes sure he never asked for it, I offered but I need a MAN by myside, to be able to speak out a whole sentence, express A feeling, one thought...(OK that sounds weird, it's the exact opposite of the defitinion of a man-with the excemption of some DBers here). All this time, he never, never told ME anything. He is been sharing his thoughts with others but not me. He hasn't initiated a meeting, a get together, nothing.
I don't know if I am doing the right thing. I have my friends telling me he is trying to find a way to get to me, in his own SLOW pace and facing himself and all the wrong doings he put us through. That's what they feel. I don't see that to be honest.
I backslided DB wise today and goals wise today. I gave him my help regarding Chelsey's soccer team arrival tonight in Athens. He didn't know if their plane is landing at the aiport (it's closed due to snowstorm). So I called my office and found out what he wanted. But I made him ask at least. I did not jump to offer my help as soon as he mentioned it casually. I let him talk, ask the question, say thanks afterwards...
Anyway, my trip to NY will have to wait, cause my friend was scheduled for S. Africa this month. Maybe next month. Your muffins will have to wait. BTW T, if you would like any Greek reciepes, let me know... I am a good cook, even H admitted he misses my cooking.
What would you suggest? I thought of asking him out, but I can't get over the wall we have between us. It feels akward. I don't want to initiate any talks, I don't want to be "available" for him.
I must sound very confused at the moment, because I am... Kalni
