Refuse To Lose, Part II

[Wooglint]

RTL,

Get out of the house and have fun for yourself. Taxes most definitely don't count.

It's not over.

I do share the same worry that even if she realizes her mistake she'll be too proud to come back. We both just have to trust that showing her complete acceptance and support will allow them to come back.

[RefuseToLose]

Essie and Wooglint,

Thanks for commenting. I've been pretty alone the past few days and seeing my D then giving her back made last night almost unbearable.

In any event, I am heading out the door soon. I need to take some things back to a couple of stores that I've put off. I purchased some lumber from Home Depot to fix our eave and once I took the old, damaged eave off, I discovered we need an entire new roof. So, my replacing the eave would merely be a waste of time. I also purchased a router so W could have a stronger internet connection in the bedroom (to talk to OM, of course), but I wasn't able to get it hooked up correctly and then she filed for divorce and left. Thus, it has been sitting here in the office and I have no need for it now.

Thus, I'm going to load up the car w/ wood and a router and return them. The router was one of the "unnecessary expenses" she's blaming me for making. I purchased it on her request, but her revisionist history doesn't remeber it as such.

Once I get those tasks completed, I'm thinking of going and hitting a bucket or seven of golf balls. I haven't swung a club since before New Years and I need to get out and do it to try and find the old me again.

Finally, as crazy as it sounds, my decision to finally sort through tax receipts got me to put on clothes, brush my teeth, and think about heading out. Now, I've only sorted through our medical and pharmacy bills, but at least I have them in matching piles and I can start recording them later today.

I'll get out and let you know what I come up with.

later,
RTL

[RefuseToLose]

Woolglint,

This quote of yours is what I have to keep telling myself:

It's not over.

It is hard to believe there is hope, but if I give up now, I'll give up my chance to learn and change. I am being challenged to do something and it isn't time yet to reveal what that is.

Thank you for that small, simple, yet powerful sentence. I can't give up hope. It is not over.

RTL

[mymonkeybug]

Absolutely...It's Not Over by any stretch of the imagination.

I tell myself this everyday regardless of what I hear form him which is the usual, "I don't feel it for you anymore" garbage. This MLC junk is the pits.

Keep strong. I truly believe it is never over even if a divorce is final. I was told a story by someone today about a woman who stood for her marriage and her H came back 5 years later even after the D had been final for some time. I don't mean to go all religious for those that aren't but God's plan for a husband and wife is NOT divorce.