Ooh, I love Good Will Hunting. So, you're doing your own version of "going to see about a girl," huh? Good for you! (BTW, I totally understand that this means a change in lifestyle and a loosening of the death grip you had on the past, not in any ways indicative of finding a new person in your life. Just wanted to make that clear!) Don't be afraid of looking towards the future in a positive way. I know that I didn't want to do that for the longest time, as to me it meant admitting to myself that my R was really over.
Yep yep and uh huh! Admitting that what was is no more. Does it mean that I am not standing? HECK NO! But it is admitting that this journey is no longer about him but me. AND I LOVE him and the nature of love is to sacrifice...yet now he has left and because of that he doesn't get to have that side of me anymore.
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I can't stress to you enough how much I love my gym time. I take classes, so I am surrounded by other people and challenged (I am not good at the alone thing).
My excercise journey -- you ready? Started working out 11 years ago - ended up doing some 5K's-- a couple 20K's and then did a marathon in 2004. IT IS NOW 2008!! AHHHH!! How did time go so fast.
I have worked out off and on since living here - and it has been hard to find my nitch here. All the other places we lived I taught aerobics and kickboxing and did my running thing. Here it has been a challenge...but it has been there. I AM READY to regain that side of me 100%. Really want my runnning back. I WAS GOOD at it. NOT FAST at all but consistant. Getting up at 4:45am to go workout alone is hard...but good grief this past year ALONE was hard so I really need to just suck it up and get there!
You haven't told me your "Short version" of your story. Whats yours? Where is your H today?
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
