H never came back from Iraq, part 3

[MichelleLT]

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Nothing much to update. No contact from H, shock surprise there.

H didn't let my Happy Valentine's Day comment post on his MySpace page yet and probably won't at this rate. I bet H doesn't want to piss off OW, she's apparently the jealous type. Which I find funny because H always HATED jealous women - too much drama.

I'm bored at the moment. My roommate is at work, there's nothing good on TV, and I'm generally feeling unmotivated today. Too bad I have stuff to do for school. Oh well, that can wait a day.

[NikB]

Unmotivated must be in the air around here today Michelle! Same here.. just feeling soooo lazy. At least I went out and enjoyed the sun for awhile earlier while being lazy. Hope you got to do the same.

Sounds like a good "curl up with a bowl of popcorn and watch a movie" night to me...

[MichelleLT]

Lol. I actually ended up having popcorn for "lunch" yesterday and watching Footloose. They had a lot of 80s movies on this weekend once I found the right channel.

I got a phone call from a good friend saying she was in the area, so I ended up meeting up with her at one of our favorite line dancing places. I actually stayed out pretty late, had a good time and got to see some friends I haven't seen in a while.

I have to work tonight, and I really don't want to. I'm not looking forward to being on my feet for 5 hours though since my ankle is still hurting. Hopefully I'm working with one of my friends and I get to take all my breaks and such. If I'm there by myself, I'm gonna be seriously annoyed.

[klm]

I'm glad you had a good time last night. I hope work isn't too bad tonight...and I hope the ankle gets better soon!

[FLTC]

Michelle,

Maybe time to not do things like let your H. know you're even thinking about him on VD. It might be more of an annoyance to him than a welcome greeting. Hope work was good and that your ankle is getting better: RICE: Rest, Ice, Compression, Elevation!Ususally better with a glass of wine or a beer! Oh, I wish!!!!!!!!!!

[MichelleLT]

Work wasn't too bad. Didn't work with my two favorite people, but also didn't have to work with the one girl I don't like. And there were two of us to close, so that was alright. It sucked though because they shoved us out the door so fast I had to clock off an hour early and our department wasn't very clean. I was unhappy for two reasons - I didn't like leaving the mess for the morning crew since it's a holiday today and a sale day and they would be busy as well plus I had to clock off an hour early and I had clocked off for lunch so I only got 4 1/2 hours on the clock. :-( Oh, I guess 3 reasons, my ankle was hurting too.

It is feeling okay this morning though, not as good as yesterday morning, but okay. So it's healing slowly.

No word from H, I'm pretty sure he denied my comment on his MySpace, and I'm still generally feeling frustrated with the entire situation. I just keep waiting for the next bomb to drop. At this point I figure he'll use his tax return to file, but then I think about all the other debt he seems to have and wonder if he'll try and pay some of that off. He just seems so resolute, since two weeks after I found out about the A when he made his "commitment" to OW and told me we couldn't have sex anymore, he has never wavered - D is his "only option for happiness" and whether I want it or not I am going to be D "soon." But it hasn't happened and some days that gives me hope, while other days it just annoys me beyond expression to live in this screwed up limbo. How come he gets to have sex and date and I can't? Why can't he just make up his mind and get this over with so I can move on with my life too?

[klm]

I know how you feel. Limbo sucks and is very frustrating. Do you think money is the reason he hasn't filed? By the way, he isn't currently having sex and dating, OW is in England! If that is even still going on when she gets back I think it will end pretty soon after.

[MichelleLT]

Well, last I saw, which was a few months ago, they were having Skype sex / phone sex 4/5 times a day. And yeah, it's not the same thing. It's certainly not as much fun as the real thing. Which is one reason I've never been a big fan, which I guess was one of his unexpressed frustrations with his deployment. I told him it was teasing and it was mean and just frustrating, not fulfilling. I guess he doesn't feel the same way.

I don't expect they will survive the summer either. I think the distance is dragging things out since he doesn't actually have to deal with her drama on a daily basis where he can't walk away from it. I almost wish she was here, isn't that weird to say?

Money has been his excuse. I'm not sure if that's his real reason.

[klm]

Well, last I saw, which was a few months ago, they were having Skype sex / phone sex 4/5 times a day.

I have no idea what Skype sex is.

I almost wish she was here, isn't that weird to say?

I don't think this is weird. I also think the distance is prolonging the inevitable. I think it would fizzle quicker if they saw each other more.

Well, I think he could pay for the D if he wanted to...he found the money to go to England. Where there's a will there's a way. Maybe he isn't 100% sure.

[MichelleLT]

I have no idea what Skype sex is.

Skype is a voice/video chat you do over the computer. They both have web cams I guess, I know H does at least.

Well, I think he could pay for the D if he wanted to...he found the money to go to England. Where there's a will there's a way. Maybe he isn't 100% sure.

That's the exact thought that gives me hope. On the other hand, OW wasn't going to wait so he put that on his credit card, I guess he figures the D can wait or I'll file. *sighs* Who knows. I don't know why I bother trying to figure it out.

I have two things that I need to talk to H about I guess. The blood bank keeps calling and asking me for donations, I haven't gone since I found out about H's A because I didn't feel safe giving someone else my blood with who-knows-what in it. Especially after finding out about the Craig's List stuff, I really need more details so I know if I'm EVER eligible to donate blood again or if I can go in next time they call me. The second is taxes, whether to file married filing separately or together. Together would get us more back almost certainly.

I'm not sure how to handle it though. He almost never answers his phone when I call, he's not great about e-mail, and even IM can be hit and miss. Partly it's whether he's in a solitary mood or not I guess, but somehow I doubt he ever misses OW's phone calls.