on hold

[stella_k]

Posted this on MLC and wanted to have it here as well:



ok, something happened today and I'm not sure what to make of it.

My H has called.

after we spoke for awhile about D17 and his work, he brought up the R topic, first time in 2 months.
It was as if he wanted to say something but then decided otherwise. I asked if there is anything I should know about and he said no, nothing new. That he has done far too much talking already (he surely has. The things he said...God, I wish I could forget!). I didn't push and left it at that.

The next thing he said was: you should know that I'm not happy with what I've done. I said, I hope not.

And then, that the most important thing is that I'm all right. I said I sure am.

I asked him several questions, whether he eats properly and how is his insomnia,
and how are the things at work, after which I changed the subject. We were on the phone for a long time and I was the first one to say bye.

Now the positive half of me is hoping that it's the sign of the fog lifting and that he is thinking about dumping the OW and coming back:)

And then, of course, the negative one is sure that he is about to dump me for good and just wants to make sure that I'm not going to kill myself or something of the sort:(

I am sure it's a new stage, but which one?

Would appreciate any thoughts/comments.