aha... you might keep an eye out for the possibility of an "OW" then.
it's a long shot. But stranger things have been seen on these forums. IF there is... it doesnt mean that you have lost her. It just means that things got a lot more complicated.
Yep, people do kooky crazy weird things for love. Seems to make things more complicated. People seem to act weirder.
As W2S says, you will be stepping into the looking glass if you continue forward on this path. It may be the only way out, I have no idea, it's just best to know that anything and everything can and will happen.
Following the White Rabbit is not a good time.
As Dom says, maybe there is a way out that isn't that? Again, try your best, and ask for help as you've been doing so well.