Ooh, I love Good Will Hunting. So, you're doing your own version of "going to see about a girl," huh? Good for you! (BTW, I totally understand that this means a change in lifestyle and a loosening of the death grip you had on the past, not in any ways indicative of finding a new person in your life. Just wanted to make that clear!) Don't be afraid of looking towards the future in a positive way. I know that I didn't want to do that for the longest time, as to me it meant admitting to myself that my R was really over.
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So many fantastic "thoughts" this past week. So many...and the word try has begun to LEAVE my vocabulary. It is do or literally die inside. AND I AM TIRED of dieing inside. LIFE. It is time for life.
I hope this doesn't sound condescending, but I am so proud of you for this!!! Mer, Betsey, and I used to say "Go You!," so I'm giving you a big GO YOU here!!!
Your list over the past month is wonderful. Yes, it is important for your children to see you grow. I realized what damage I was doing to my own children by being so malleable in my own situation. No matter how my H treated me, I was always there for him, with a smile on my face, trying to make things better for him. Yeah, not for ME, but for him. How screwed up was that? And one day I realized that I was teaching my kids (all boys) that this is what a woman is...and in a roundabout way I was teaching them how not to respect one. I HATED that idea. So, I started to do more for myself, and more importantly, demand more from them, too. The level of respect rose around here exponentially. (Kinda like the Grinch's heart growing!)
I can't stress to you enough how much I love my gym time. I take classes, so I am surrounded by other people and challenged (I am not good at the alone thing). As for cooking- great idea! Try allrecipes.com, all the recipes are rated on there and I have found some really good things. When I am stressed I bake or cook. Last week I was bogged down in so much homework, yet there I was, in the kitchen trying my hand at homemade pierogies. (They were great, by the way!)
Have a fabulous Sunday! You're almost through another weekend!!!
