There is no telling why she hasn't seen a L yet. You are going to drive yourself crazy trying to figure it out. They are not logical.
You are very new at this (reg date) and at this stage it is so hard not to focus on them. But you need to let her be and focus on YOU. She's going to do what she's going to do. She is like a train that is out of control, you can't stop the train wreck, you can only remove yourself from it.
Stop wondering if things she does are tests for you, or why she does what she does. You will drive yourself crazy.
Just be the best Broken Tree you can be. She will notice, she mat not seem like it or react to it but she will notice. Working on you will make you feel better about yourself and it will show in all you do.
