Thank you so much for your supportive words! I feel so encouraged and cared for.
The rest of the week was good: -another awesome cello lesson -more muffin making (muffins = therapy) -good yoga classes...
I had a couple of really awesome realizations this week. The first is, I do not need to rely on my own puny human strength in this endeavor, because God, the Dharma, whatever you want to call it, wants healing and reconciliation to happen, and wants to help me. It was really amazing this week because this message was coming at me from many different angles... Tuesday's yoga class was about how we are constantly supported and surrounded by this energy. It is not all about our own effort. At the end of class I laid in deep relaxation and just wept wept wept. So amazing...
I also realized that I had a weird mental construct about B's career. In my mind, I could not figure out a way for it to work out between us unless it didn't work out with his quartet. But I realized... that is ridiculous! First off, he does not have to fail in his career in order to succeed in the relationship. That is just my own mental construct. Secondly, there are kazillions of possible opportunities and solutions out there. Just because I can't figure it all out in my own puny human mind only knowing about a tiny fraction of a percent of all the opportunities and solutions possible in the world doesn't mean it's not possible. And in fact... I don't have to figure it out by myself! I don't have to figure it out in order for it to work out. Amazing!!
(Essie, I think this relates to a lot of what we've been talking about with B's career.)
