In 1.5 hrs gonna c H for first time in over a year

[Ophelia]

I haven't been on the boards much recently. When you haven't even seen or spoken to your H for over a year, it's hard to keep up hope. I still want my M back, but I don't know how to make it happen with such limited contact, but that's not what this post is about.

Long story short, the last time we saw or spoke to each other was Christmas Eve '06. Since then, communication has been limited to emails and a handful of txts.

A few months back, we tried to set something up where he was gonna come over and show me the photos from his trip to Africa in Oct. The day he was meant to come over, his dad had a heart attack and ended up in hospital.

I hadn't emailed him since before Christmas, but did so a couple of weeks ago, and it turns out he had been about to email me, because he needs our M certificate, as his new job involves working with the Air Force, so they're all having security checks and they need to know everything about them.

Just before, I got a txt saying that he'd be coming over 2:30ish, which is in about 1.5 hours!

Now, I'd still been telling him in the email that I wanted him to come over and hang out for a while and tell me all about Africa, but if memory serves, he has footaball training at 3, so he's timed his visit so he won't be able to stay long. Chances are he'll just stop by to pick up the certificate and then be on his way.

What's really got my stomach in knots is that in the last email I sent him I casually asked if I could take a photo of his shirtless torso while he's here. One of my groups on Flickr, (photo sharing site) has monthly challenges, and the theme for Feb is "7 Days of Creation". So I explained to H that for my Day 6 photo I wanted a shot of a male torso, because of the whole God created Adam then took his rib to make Eve thing. He never replied to that email, just the txt I got before, so I don't know what he thought of my request. I really want that photo though, (and there's no other male I could ask to pose for me, which I also mentioned in the email...said I'd get my brother to do it, but he's not in the country right now), so at some point I'm gonna haft ask, "So, how about that photo?" and I'm rather freaked about his reaction. If he refuses I'm gonna have to resist the urge to pout and say, "Consider it a birthday present, pleeeease?" (it's my b'day on the 22nd).

Anyway, no one in real life knows that he's gonna be here, but I needed somewhere to vent, so here I am. I'll be back to post again in a few hours and will either be giddy or will be a wreck.