For your first question - she could not care less about you and your feelings. You are or you were just an obstacle in the way of their happiness they pretend do not exist. She will not take away your pain or turn back time. For your second question - As crazy as it seems, the anger is there, the sadness is there, the hurt is there but somewhere a very low voice inside your heart is telling you this too shall pass and you will live. For me just as for you, right now it is a very very low voice, but if you are here, and writing, you searched and found this site, your survival tools are there in your heart and you are working on making that voice higher. Take care.
