I'm sick with a miserable head cold on top of everything alse.
Went to the lawyers yesterday and we went over the financial statement. She gave me homework
Geshhhhh...my head is spinning and the tears are flowing allllll day I look like a wet sponge.
Went to dr's and got some anti-anxiety meds .and stuff for cold.
H went and got stuff for his cold and viagra. He left the pkg.on the counter by mistake. That hurt but I guess it doesn't really matter now anyway....
When all is said and done I will probably end up with a 70,000 dollar mortgage and not sure what alimony will be.
I didn't ask for this and I have no choice and here it is right in my face.
My H closing date on his house is March 16.
My youngest son is heading to Alberta for 3 years for work
And I feel like my world is moving fast and I want to get off.
On the flip side H has been telling me this morning that he is not going to be a pri-k and he will be here to fix things if I need them. He worked on the furace this morning. Filters and stuff
That's what makes it soooooo hard He's still taking care of me.
Also I asked what do I do about going over to his house ...what do I do he said call first....ok that was weird and kinda hurt and was a jolt of reality.
He said he needs to be alone...to get away that there has been so much stress in this last year he needs to be by himself.
He may start dating,but he just needs to get away and be alone.
The househe bought was a repo and a fixer upper and he said he doesn't even want anyone there to help him. If he wants to work on it for an hour here and there that's what he'll do.
I know this is what needs to be done for us to get apart to have space and heal. But it is so painful.
My heart is broken and I've never been so sad.
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"Sometimes in the winds of change, we find our true direction"
