I am ok on my own I like my time and I get to spend it the way I want
It is good that you have reached this point. It sure beats being on that emotional rollercoaster we were on for so long and now you know you will be fine whether your H returns or not.
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I look and think about H and I cant believe how he could just walk out never considering me or the kids I am losing respect for him more I still want M but I wonder even if he returned if I could handle it especially with all the damage he odes and continues to do like a tornado that blew thru town the walking dead
I know exactly how you feel, but we can't lose our compassion. Sometimes it is so hard to remember what they are dealing with. I am not sure we can fully comprehend what they have going through their heads. So, find that compassion and let everything else go.
Have you thought about anything you can do to be solution-oriented? I have tried to come up with a few things but it all leads me back to feeling like I am pushing somehow...and also it takes my focus off of me. Just wondering what your thoughts are on it.
Thanks for forwarding the Charlyne Cares email to me. My H was raised Catholic (has not been practicing all of his adult life) and I had no religious upbringing to speak of. I do believe in God and I do pray but I have never found a church where I feel like I belong. I read so much here about how God can play a huge role in the return of someone in crisis and then I wonder if there is really any hope for my M since my H and I really aren't as religious as we should be. I know I can change that for myself (and I would love to find a church where I felt like I belonged) but I have my doubts that my H will ever become more religious or spirtual. I sometimes wonder if God is putting me through this to bring me closer to him.
I hope you are enjoying your weekend. Call me if you want to talk.
