I'm not sure where to go from here, DB-wise, or how to experiment and monitor results. The results are the same no matter what I do--H is absent. I wish I had more control over making myself feel stronger, but the fact that H is in the same place as he was makes me feel more hopeless than ever. I feel like a hole has been burned through me.
I welcome advice on how to do 180s or DB more effectively--but please don't tell me to pursue a class or hobby!!
Once again, we're in much the same place, lmg. I guess (like most of us) what you bring to the board are your frustrations and questions about the things that aren't working - we tend not to mention the things that are working.
So, why don't we (you and I and anyone that cares to join in)start noting on our own threads one or two things that we've noticed that day that seem to be moving us closer to our goals. Perhaps we can help each other find ways to build on those successes so we don't feel so stuck.
Is there any exercise in your regular routine? If not, that's what I'd suggest adding - walking is free and can be done any time.
