Wednesday, I was upbeat because of the lame reason for WAW's phone call followed by very positive conversation where WAW shared her bathroom issues and acknowledged getting 5D's valentine day card.
No contact since. Dropped off 5D this morning, Saturday. I had decided that I would offer to take the scrap from the bathroom project to the junkyard by saying I had to go anyhow, if that is something you would like. Well, unexpectedly, she says she didn't know if that is something needed and she would just rather me get my stuff that she had piled over and pointed. Yuck. Then she commented about 5D clothes and I asked about sizes because I had gone and nothing seemed to fit. Church shoes, etc...then back on my stuff and she and her brother might get a truck and put in my carport...yucko x 2. I said, "I am not going to be around to do that. you just don't get it, most of that stuff I just want to yard sale or burn. I am just not the person anymore. I have absolutely no desire to do those things." She said,"well" and I felt like this was going to be a divorce paper topic...so as she said "well" I turned and skipped on down the porch steps like I was the happiest man on earth...
It was the first time I felt that no matter what, she might be done as she has said before. I do not understand with such simple problems in our M. I just do not accept it. I hate this wishy-washiness when she warps my mind with 'tea-leave' positives. Read more and pray a lot. The Lord is the only one. He gives me strength.
Just because of some stinking rain, I speak and offer and act of kindness and then I get hit with moving my other unimportant stuff. Now, I have to validate her feelings of moving it and break "structured darkness" again...It's contradictory but although it hurts, she cannot hurt me anymore...
Any input would be greatly appreciated...thanks again...
