I guess I am just in a funk right now. Even if H does want to reconcile, I don't want to be with the person he is now. I know that. I don't like him right now. Even though he is being nicer and spending time with me...I just don't like him. He is depressing and spending time with him is emotionally draining. He isn't the person I fell in love with. I am not sure if he ever will be again.
I actually think I was happier and in a better place before he ever called and before he ever moved back here. I hate to say it, but it is true. I guess I just need to figure out how long I am going to wait...but i have to say that I am close to the end of my rope. If he doesn't start putting forth some effort soon I may go and file myself. I can't be in limbo forever.
