It's nice to hear how proud yoru H was when he told you about his ring. Very cool!
Thannx a million for this and for your post... I never looked at it like he was proud, it is like you hit me on the head with a bat...????????? That is why I love this place it helps me so, so much.
And right now I just came to post cause I am feeling strange and your post lifted my spirits, Thank you very much!
My H is in Mexico just on Vacation... and it is killing me and he misses me too. I think now that our R is so much better he misses me more than ever , well I do not have to speculate he has told me over and over.
So this is what once again is perplexing me.... I feel sad, like I have a sliver I can't get rid of , like something is right there and it bugs me......?????????????
1. I feel jealousy alot lately... when he is super nice like this he scares me. ( OLD PATTERN : H SUPER NICE = UP TO NO GOOD) In my head and heart , I KNOW he is not cheating anymore but old habits die hard and this one is hanging onto me for dear life. I know in my soul he is doing good and being Faithful, so what the H*ll is wrong with me? 2. I can feel good times are coming and yet instead of inner peace my emotions are still everywhere. I hear myself and feel my self talk and I want to just scream. 3. I've waited so long for him to grow up and now that he is it scares the h*ll out of me....
So jealousy and fear are on the frontline...... I know it is ok for me to go back and forth like this like COG said but I feel like I am getting in my own way. I have not mentioned my jealousy at all ....
just need to find a path thru this BS going on in my head....
I will post more in a bit... my girls just made me BREAKFAST.
That is why I love this place it helps me so, so much.
