Help Me Act AS IF, Part 3

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We always laugh together--H&I as well as the four of us. V-day I think H&I were especially relaxed due to the relief of the day being over and neither of us having to wonder how the other one would handle it.

The truth is, I KNOW he knows we still have chemistry. When he isn't hiding behind his wall, it is very clear that he still finds me charming and funny. To him, that doesn't count as love. To me, it's pretty close after almost 20 years together. We are still physically attracted to one another too (though not acting on that).

Last night, D11, H & I played games together and had a blast. This is nothing unusual. What is unusual is that my once-adoring H never wants to spend time alone with me by choice Or ML anymore. This is a major switch and I can't help but feel like he is punishing me for the many times when I wasn't in the mood. Now I'm so in the mood, it's ridiculous. It's all I can do not to leap on him.

Anyway, on and on and on it goes...where it will stop, nobody knows!