Cat, Stop being so hard on yourself. You are going through your emotional ups and downs - like everybody does. And once again, I can relate to what you're going through.
So, right now you're feeling needy. You miss your H. You want to hear his voice. That's okay. You are aware of it. So, now try to take the focus off your H and onto you. It's okay to anticipate hearing from him. Just don't stop your life for it.
Remember that with your H out of the house, you no longer have to worry about reading his moods... or if he's keeping secrets. You can let all of that go.
As for your being percieved needy by your H, my suggestion would be not to let it show anymore. So, you're aware of it. Now, dont' call him. Don't ask him about meeting again. Let him initiate the next contact.
Again, it's okay to feel needy. But your H is in no place to aleviate that feeling for you. He cannot be the person you "need" right now.
He is taking positive steps. He is seeing the C. Good. That means he is aware of how messed up he is. And the more space you give him, the more you will facilitate his recovery. Make him work for you. If he thinks it's too easy to get back into your good graces, he may not do the work that is needed.
All the advice that I give is based on my own personal experiences... what has worked, what ahsn't worked for me. My H and I were separated for a year and on again, off again for much of that time. So, I know the highs and lows that are involved.
Hang in there. Stop beating yourself up. YOu are a wonderful woman. Remember that. Give yourself a break.
Married 9 years Kids 5 and 6 Bomb 2006 H back and forth for a year M now back on track
