Saturday I was ready to hold up the white flag and admit defeat. The last two days presented some positives that have me confused again and thinking there may still be hope. My boss is going to court tomorrow to end her marriage and she doesn't see hope for mine. I guess I will continue to hold out hope as long as I haven't had any papers delivered to me. Don't get me wrong, H will still have to change before everything is rosie, but I do want to try to focus on the positives.
1. H locked the door on his way out last night. I know, really small, but something he hasn't done in a long time. 2. H called yesterday during the day to tell me he was going shopping. Then he called me on his way back to work. Just happy he shared a little of himself w/ me. 3. I was having a superduper fabulous hair day today. Of course H was running a little late and didn't see me before I left for work. I got a lot of comments about how good my hair looked today so I took a pic. on my phone and was going to send it to H. I decided not to send it because I didn't want to be pushy. Since it was both snowing and raining here today it didn't look so great when H saw me tonight. I told him about the pic and sent it to him. H liked the pic and liked another I had on my phone better so I sent him that too. 4. It was H's evening w/ Ds. H asked if I had plans to go somewhere or if I wanted to stay at the house because of the roads. I opted for the house and offered to make dinner. 5. H had an appt. today w/ someone who isn't his horrible C. H also told me he had to pick up a script from the pharm. 6. H seemed to be in a good mood tonight. 7. When H was leaving he came back in and told me to be carefully it was going to get very icey. H also opened the garage (opener is broken) so I could pull my car in. 8. I cleaned the snow off the drive before H got home so I didn't look so needy.
Nothing new on your thread for a while. I hope you day is going well and you're making the most of the warm day (lol). Hopefully your H is on this planet for V day
Nothing new on your thread for a while. I hope you day is going well and you're making the most of the warm day (lol). Hopefully your H is on this planet for V day
Hi Brit! Nothing new to post really. Yesterday I picked D10 up from the rink and took her to Giant Eagle to pick up stuff for her v-day party at school. I decided I wasn't in the mood to cook so I picked up Chinese. D10 was very excited about that. H stopped by and ate. Then he spent a couple of hours at the house. It amazes me how I'm expected to leave when it is "his" time but he just comes and hangs out as much as he wants on other days. People keep telling me I need to put a stop to that, but I don't want to keep him away from the girls. In my book they come first.
H brought home his check yesterday for the stock from his company's buyout. Biggest check I'll ever see in my lifetime unless I win the lottery. I thought he would sign it and I would put it in our joint account until we decide how we will use it all. H was planning to take it with him last night to look at. I said ok give it to me tomorrow and I'll take it to the bank. H didn't want to do that. I said ok, it's your money. H said no it isn't(In my state it is half mine.) H said he was thinking about investing it and needs to talk to someone. (H has know for 2 months that he was getting this money.) I said ok, I just thought in the mean time I would put it in the bank to start earning interest. H ended up leaving the check at the house but did not sign it for me to deposit. My boss thinks I'm crazy and I should ask for half and set up an account in my name. I think that would lead to a confrontation which I try to avoid. Neither of us made any mention of the check today and I'm just going to leave it alone for now.
I gave the Ds v-day cards from me in the morning. I decided to sign only my name. No know how H will react to that. I have a card tucked away for him just in case. It says something like there will always be a place in my heart for you. I thought that was pretty generic. H made no mention of the day in the morning.
The plan was for me to leave work for awhile for Ds party then take her back with me for the last half hour of my day. Then I was going to pick D15 up at take her to the Dr. for a shot. D15 wasn't happy that she would have to go to the library after school to wait for me. H said he might be able to get her. H ended up calling me to say he would get her and bring her to my work. That ended up not working out though.
As for H. Today he had an appt. w/ a psychiatrist. This was his second appt. w/ one this week, but each was with a different Dr. Of course he hasn't told me about the appts. I only know because both offices left msg. on the home phone as reminders. The odd thing is that he gave them the home phone. I don't know if he is trying to open the door and if I'm supposed to ask about them. In any event H has seemed much happier this week.
I didn't discuss H's or my plans for tonight. I just stuck w/ the routine of Thursday is his night w/ the girls. I took them home from the Dr. and spent a little time w/ them. Then I left around 5. H tried calling before I left but didn't leave a msg. He did call D15 to see if we were home. So I have already had a yummy dinner alone at Zoup. Now I'm at the library typing away. I still haven't heard from H and assume he will show up at the house and feed the Ds.
This important newsflash just in in the WTF category. I just got a text from H asking if he minded if he took the Ds to our favorite mexican place for dinner. H also asked if I wanted to meet them. I said I already ate as I thought he was spending the evening w/ them. H then asked if I wanted to go for a margarita. I said that sounds great if he wants me too but I don't want to give the Ds the wrong idea. Waiting for a response to that now.
As I'm driving to meet H and the Ds I start thinking about what H means by the girls won't get the wrong idea. Did he mean that him inviting me means nothing and the Ds will know that. Or did he mean that it means something so it isn't possible to give them the wrong meaning. UGH!! Why do I have to think so much and why does H have to be so darn ambigious. When I got there H had a big margarita waiting for me on the table. H was pretty quiet to begin with, but he livened up and we all had a good time. NO card or anything from H today, but that is what I expected. I'll take the dinner invite as a plus although I don't know why it happened. I want to think H is reaching out, but there is that part of me that thinks H just doesn't have the courage to say it is over.
Hello, is this mike on? You guys are leaving me feeling kind of lonely. Not a lot going on w/ H today. He did call to see what our schedule for church is this weekend. H is planning a day trip to a symposium tomorrow. He will just be gone for the day. While I was taking D15 to a bball game H called to say he was headed home. H wanted to know if he should start dinner or if we ate already. Told him we ate and there was some on the stove for him. I'm lucky I didn't wreck my car because that is a 180 for H. D10 and I stopped on the way home for ice cream and brought some for H. When we got home H was talking to his mom on the phone. Actually talking not just saying um hum. I asked why she called and H said he called her. Another 180. What's up with all of that? I am starting to get my hopes up to much that they alien abduction may actually come to an end.
Sorry haven't checked in lizzy S5 had 105 fever for 5 days and today i fel on ice at school and fractured my ankle. will check in on you when my pain isn't a level 9!
This important newsflash just in in the WTF category. I just got a text from H asking if he minded if he took the Ds to our favorite mexican place for dinner. H also asked if I wanted to meet them. I said I already ate as I thought he was spending the evening w/ them. H then asked if I wanted to go for a margarita. I said that sounds great if he wants me too but I don't want to give the Ds the wrong idea. Waiting for a response to that now.
As I'm driving to meet H and the Ds I start thinking about what H means by the girls won't get the wrong idea. Did he mean that him inviting me means nothing and the Ds will know that. Or did he mean that it means something so it isn't possible to give them the wrong meaning. UGH!! Why do I have to think so much and why does H have to be so darn ambigious. When I got there H had a big margarita waiting for me on the table. H was pretty quiet to begin with, but he livened up and we all had a good time. NO card or anything from H today, but that is what I expected. I'll take the dinner invite as a plus although I don't know why it happened. I want to think H is reaching out, but there is that part of me that thinks H just doesn't have the courage to say it is over.