Geez Jenny, I think you read my mind, too. Like I said on my thread, sometimes I think that I pray so much and so hard that God, himself will come down and tell me to knock it off, already. I feel the same way. I don't have any answers and I don't know how to interpret any "signs". I'm not a terribly religious person, either. I definitely believe in God, but I rarely go to church. I do pray often. But, take a piece of your own advice... when you calm down your thoughts, that's when God will speak to you. You have great strength and you know the answers to many of your questions. I think that you, like me, are wanting results faster. Deep breath, hang on, and use this time for you. Go, go, go do something for you, no matter how small. Change your hair. Buy sexy underware (I swear this feels good even if it's just for you, right now), flirt with whoever, have a girls night once or twice a month. Take some time for you. You definitely deserve it.


M 5yrs
1st baby-girl born 6/18/08
Bomb: 10/13/07 OW - I was 6wks Prego
H Moved in w/OW: 11/2/07
D Final 07/10
OW had his baby 3/17/09-so her
Me, now - happier than I ever was with him