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Hello Friends,

Havnt been on the board lately, not sleeping well, trying to divide up my time with everyone and stay sane!
Went to doc yesterday about not sleeping, told my sitch and he perscribed a sleeping pill. My c said that over the counter ones leave you groggy. It worked last night.
Just got done at about 10:00 watching movie with d12 and s8.

Right now my w is with om half way across country, om bought her a ticket. She left tuesday and is returning monday. I am absolutly stressing when im not busy doing something!

I believe i'm getting a more clear picture on what im going to do.
1. I am staying in our house.
2. I am going to fig out seperate finances
3. I am considering filing for d when w returns.
(w has said she will fight for custody and doesnt agree with joint)
(my l said courts wont grant joint unless agreed upon)
(my w wants me out of house, to fig this out)
(i havnt told her im not moving out, avoiding that conversation)
(i think if i want joint c i will have to start by asking for full)This will make things very difficult between us

I think im to that point. If she is still committed to om, then have him. Im tired of stressing over all this.

I know who i am and what life i want, this is not it.
How can a person hate someone and love them even more?

Now to my mean side. I was serously considering and now regret not sending my w flowers on vd to om's house (i had to see his frickin flowers on w's bday). I also was considering having sues put some kind of card or gift on my w's car at the MN airport parking lot so she would find it when she returns monday. That would be considered persuing so i was thinking of some kind of flyer about the importance of family (guilt trip). Just my thoughts, as demented as they are.

I plan on catching up on threads this weekend.

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