How funny! I'm sooo far from being male. Imagine a little, skinny, long-haired blond. Sort of an older version of Paris Hilton (with a better nose!).

I think you are right about the rote memory. I think there was an element of that. He was having a hard time with pulling away.

But I think he also had pity too. It was a very rough time for me. I was an emotional wreck.. and I didn't hide that from him (this was before DBing). He did a lot of apologizing, and felt very bad about divorcing me and how much it was hurting me.

There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.