No Expectations 4

[peacetoday]

Hi
H here tonight
came late he and wanted to take kids out
I asked if they could stay and He might settle them into bed(I was going out anyway)
he took them out
its like he cant sit still with them
looks tired again and always
he justs works too much and too hard
If only he would have put 1/10 in himself or our M of what he puts into work
anyway no talks tonight
I net this woman around the corner who H left 3 years ago
he was 32 H went NC for 3 years
all of a sudden he resurrected
He wants to see kids
started paying
He has an OW
now hes filing want D to be with OW
it was good to have another LBS in neighborhood
three years later, she is doing good on her own
that is hopeful and im starting to really feel it
I am ok on my own
I like my time and I get to spend it the way I want
I look and think about H and I cant believe how he could just walk out never considering me or the kids
I am losing respect for him more
I still want M but I wonder even if he returned if I could handle it
especially with all the damage he odes and continues to do
like a tornado that blew thru town
the walking dead
peace