When I had to go, we had just talked about 'being the victim', and how I couldn't idenitfy with the type of person who constantly used that.

I think that had a lot to do with helping me in this process.

When I realized that I was making myself the victim...whenever I talked with friends it was always about her and what she was doing and OM, and how could she and all the 'whys?'.

I realized that I was that type of person I couldn't understand, didn't want to, more importantly I didn't want to be.

"When you stare too long into the abyss..."

"When you fight monsters..."

While she was turning our history around to suit her poor choices and blaming me...

I was blaming her for my current unhappiness.

And exactly who is in control of how I feel?

The day I stopped being a victim, was the day I was was almost through it all.



Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis

Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans

Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK

TRUST THE PROCESS - Cadet