Of course we are reading the ramblings. We are here for you. I am reading a really good book. Not a self-help book or a relationship book. Just really good literature. And I think it would speak to you in a way that might help you. The book is called Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. It is on the bestseller list, I guess for fiction, but it might be non-fiction. Not sure. I think you would enjoy it, and I think it would be a nice escape for you. In some ways I think you are like the author, and the book is about her journey to find peace by herself after a divorce and a very bad breakup.