I went through boxes of old stuff that had old cards H had sent me. Was hard nd good to read. Good to read them and realize that we were actually in love once upon a time, and I didnt imagine it all! So many cards saying how I was the best thing that had ever happened to him and one that said "I hope God will strike me down if I ever take you for granted"! God - could you please take him up on that?!? Also really hard to see all the photos of when we were dating and first married - they were such good times, and we are clearly happy and in love. Oh well he has 'forgotten' about those times for whatever reason, and obviously doesn't want any reminders of it. Was tempted to put aside stuff to help him remember - but fortunately realized that if he doesn't want to see them it will only make matters worse. Why cant he ring me?!?
I'm also glad I'm almost through the sorting the boxes out. Its emotionally draining, but once its done I too can forget about it for a while.
I'm going shopping for some treats for me - clothes and also some new things for the house. If and when H ever comes to see me, I do want it to physically look like I'm moving forward. And of course I want to move forward for myself!
