All I can hold on to is myself, kids and this site

[BEAUTYandWAH]

Joie~

He really thinks going to graduate school is the best thing for kids. I try to tell him when responsible people who want to go to grad school and have a better life, they will work very hard NOW and save money for family and then, they will go back to school. According to him, he MUST go to school now. I keep asking him what about kids NOW?? I will deal with about future when the time comes but " I NEED FINANCIAL SUPPORT NOW DAMN IT!"

But I know OW was trying to convince him that D would make kids happy in the future because her parents divorce and I guess it was better for her, I don't know.


So, my birthday party is tomorrow~. In-laws are making dinner for me and my sis-in-law whose birthday was yeasterday. (mine is 2/19) After that, my friends and her friends will meet us at a bar. My H... I really didn't invite him to the bar party although I did say "I am sure you would like to celebrate for your sister.. right?" So, he will come for a bit for sure.

A few weeks ago, he was saying "I am confused.. I miss you sometimes. I am not coming back now but I don't know about future..." and about one week ago, "from the beginning of separation, I told you I will never come back to you."

And last night, "you are my family and if I have new person in my life, she will have to understand our close family relationship and we will take care of each other forever."

So, I am assuming this cycle will continue until D is final. Bitter-sweet-bitter-sweet--and who knows next. like my S2! So, I am pretty much 'yeaaa.. okay, I understand how you feel/ what you mean/ where you coming from/..." After all, confrontation will not help at all because he just doesn't get it.

I wonder this is "men depression".. he is moody, forgetful, drama king...


Beauty