Okay, I had a mostly terrible Valentine's Day and it was mostly my own fault because I am apparently pretty much the worst GF on the planet. I am sunk in a miasma of self-pity and loathing. Plus I have PMS so I am cranky. I hold myself mostly responsible for my current pathetic state of being but because I am cranky I feel compelled to cast aspersions upon certain members of this BB whose advice/comments were the opposite of helpful to me because they either frightened me or reinforced certain areas of low self-esteem which I can't help having. So I would ask that in the future people limit their tendencies to make comments about:
1) Women being crazy and bi-polar women being sexual freaks but too crazy to want to be in a relationship with otherwise. Please recall that my mother is HD and bi-polar and although I am not actually bi-polar and I don't tend towards rage like my mother and I do tend towards being a smiling depressive like my father on the downside, I am well aware that I have general tendencies in this direction.
2) The fact that I can't help but signal "bunkey" will cause men to lure me into their cars with candy but then toss me out on the side of the road. Telling me this doesn't scare me enough to keep me away from the cars/men/candy but it scares me enough that I strap on a safety helmet as soon as I finish the candy and then I end up thoroughly insulting men by signaling lack of trust.
Of course, it is really all my own fault that I am currently finding myself in relationships where I find myself either saying "I am not a baby." (GP) or hearing "Are you a grown woman or not?" (FSG). Pretty much if you want to be in a relationship with me these days, you need to bring along a nice padded carriage and lots of lollipops.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
