Help Me Act AS IF, Part 3

[newnamenewlife]

I am always looking for advice!

Yes, I am enjoying the roses, figuring at least they are roses, there are a lot of them and they're not completely unrelated to the color red. How's that for glass-half-full thinking? We also had a really fun evening, the four of us. We laughed and got very silly and H & I threw pasta at each other across the dinner table (now if that's not love, what is?)

Again, it's the hope without expectations that's hard to pull off. Things seem so normal and like they've always been and I have to remind myself that, oh, right, H doesn't love me anymore...