All I can hold on to is myself, kids and this site

[BEAUTYandWAH]

NoCode and Tal,
Thanks for posting and happy v-day!
I was soo depressed among happy-v-day mood people. I really hope I am happier next valentines.

I though my night will be cleaning, watching tv etc etc. but my in-laws invited for dinner (kids were already there) and after all H joined. We had fun talking about movies, kids etc. My in-laws promissed me that they will pay for daycare. So, it was not depressed or sad night. I had some wines and feeling better.

My H told me that he is very hurt by me calling him looser. He gave me the same speech of 'its for kids future.,, brabrabrabra'
I could not say 'looser' to his face and I just said "your life style is so much different from mine"

He usualy starts the serious relationship, future, etc conversation. I am trying hard not to talk about those things. I just cannot take it..

Last night, my playful mind was thinking.. I am still MAD about his trip with OW. On the day of the trip, I kinda want to transfer all the money from his bank account (it is a joint account but I have not touched it for two months) to my personal account. I can use online bank and it will only take 2 seconds. Well, I think I should leave $1.00 in case he needs it. He ruined my marriage and I think it is fair for me to ruin his trip... just once (or many more..~).

Is that bad.? (LOL)
Beauty