Getting stronger everyday!

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Well, Its late....I was asleep, after a long day at work....V-day, so glad it is over!! Im so glad it only comes once a year.

Im up because my H called me....it is after midnight here. He was drunk. I knew something was wrong earlier tonight at TKD. He had given me a valentines day card. I wasnt expecting one, but it was a nice one. Not a wife card, but it said something about being a special person to him always. He seemed a little off. I asked if anything was wrong, he said that the exOW had hurt his feelings and he really didnt want to talk about it, I let it go. I was glad that he had given me the card.

Anyway, He called me. Actually he texted me about an hour before saying "you must be asleep" I didnt answer, yes, I was asleep. But when he called I answered. I dont have caller id on my house phone, so I werent sure who it was.

Well, he was drunk and said he had driven to the store drunk! I am so concerned about him. He told me that he didnt know why he was calling me or even telling me this, but the Ow had gone on a date tonight with a man that he had suspected she had been talking to while they were together. I really didnt say much, but I told him that I would listen to him and that I understood that his feelings were hurt. I also told him that he could not expect her to sit home alone. He said he didnt, but he was hurt she went out with this particular guy.

I didnt offer much consulation, but I did offer my ear. I told him good night, I also told him that the kids loved him and that I cared about him and that he should go to bed.

Im sorry, but I was not going to hang up on him. I listen to a friend who was hurting and maybe I shouldnt have, but I love him and I worry about him. I told him that getting drunk was not going to help things.

I am glad however that the OW is trying to move forward with her life. She had told my H's friends that she felt like my H was holding her from moving forward in her life. That he was stuck in the past...with me. Hopefully my prayers have been answered by her finding someone who can finally make her happy.....and not my H. He still has a long way to go. I know that we could never begin to heal until he gets help and he gets over her.

Im going to try to go back to bed....I just had to get this out of my mind so I could try to get some sleep. It has been a long day!! Im so glad the weekend is here!!