No Expectations 4

[peacetoday]

Hi
UD 2N solo
thansk for visiting
Happy V day
I had a good day
Letting go more especially after H keeps validating his choice to go and hes not coming back
I feel deaf to it already
I still love him dont know why
is it b/c he is unattainable
or b/c of my kids
he is a really bad father now
the best he can do is watch tv with them
yes I guess its better than not being here ate all but is he really present??
I dont know but I still feel it is worth seeing it through

I am standing for me
I need to do this
i am getting closer to God
I believe this is the path to lead me to enlightenment like never before
no going back
H is just a by product
the work is mine
the rewards are great
peace