All,

I couldn't hold back my tears as I picked up my D today. It has been 9 days since I've last seen her, so I'm so excited about the next few days. I'm upset I have to work tomorrow as I can't take the day off, but I'll be savoring every moment I can.

D is currently getting ready for our "date" so I have a few minutes to post. My DBing just got tougher today because as we were driving home, my D started talking about their new apartment and mentioned staying for two days w/ "Mr. Fancy Pants." I asked her if there was another woman w/ them in his apartment and she said no and described my W's OM's situation with the OM's separation, little girl, etc.

Again, I didn't press for too much b/c I know it will get back to my W, but D said "I think I saw him kiss mommy" then said, "Oh I wasn't supposed to tell you that, but I forgot."

I told her it was ok and I wouldn't let mommy know she told, but I'm really concerned about W spending time w/ OM and having my D with them as well. This can only serve to confuse my little girl.

So, now I know I've got to work b/c there is most likely a PA as I'm sure they extended things if W was in his apartment for two days. It is also clear that OM is no longer w/ the 22-year old student and this exactly why my W has moved so fast and been so aggressive.

Ok, now what? I know I can't let W know I know about staying at his apartment. I know I can't mention "Mr. Fancy Pants" again around my D b/c I don't want her to dwell on it. I'm not sure where this will go and I don't know how to DB it either.

Hey, I've got to run as D is ready (dressed as Princess Jasmine) and she decided she wants sushi. Got to love a 4 1/2 year old who loves sushi!

I'll talk to you all later once she's asleep because I can use some coaching here b/c if I tell anyone else outside this board, they'll tell me to give up the M right now and move on. My W is hurting and running and I don't want to give up on her. Not now. Not ever.

RTL


M:38; D: 6
Divorce Final: 10/6/08