I do all of these things and H still manages to get in my head somehow. Maybe once it's nice out again it won't be so bad since D and I will be able to actually get out and do things some more.

I can say Jeanette that the thoughts of H are different than before and ALOT less consuming. But sometimes, like right now, it takes my ALL to get him out of my head. And it sucks because since I'm his wife (I know, he doesn't think of me as such right?) that I should be able to think of him 24/7. Not the opposite that DR teaches. I hate this. \:\(

I feel like such a friggin child on this board.