Until you can afford the meds, try finding some time to take walks. Exercise releases similar chemicals in the brain as some antidepressants. When the bomb dropped I would just walk and pray and walk and pray. It was ME time that I never took before because I've always been about H and S's. Take some YOU time.
Go see the partners. You have to keep yourself physically and mentally healthy for your children.
This is a great place to vent and there are some amazing people here with great advice.
Bomb - OMG you are awesome!!
I'm going to tell you something that a beautiful soul on this board once told me (saffie):
1. You are a good woman. 2. Because you are a good woman, you are fighting for something you believe in...your marriage. 3. Because you are a good woman, if he throws this away, there are plenty of good men out there who will scoop you up.
I don't know how to do quotes but this is great! It actually made me say, 'You know, you're right!'. I will get through this and if H doesn't want me anymore than so be it. There will be someone out there that will love, respect and appreciate ME!!
