Keep praying, but most of all.......BE STILL. Do not DO anything that you can't take back until you are sure that God has led you in that direction.
Mishka, Thanks for the response. Being still is what I've been trying to do for the better part of a year. For a while H just went with the flow (he is a big procrastinator, so it was easier for him to just ignore everything as long as I was keeping a low profile), but now I think OW is putting on the pressure, big time.
In my heart, I know the truth of "Be still and know that I am God," but sometimes it sure is hard to shut up my mind. It's a good reminder.
Know that even if you have to go through with the D to salvage your family financially that doesn't have to mean the end. D is paper, not emotion. Think of it as only a business transaction.
Oooh. Trying really hard on this one. But the control freak part of me keeps wanting to bash him over the head with all the damage he's doing to the kids. And to me, D is still emotion. I know I need to keep referring back to the "be still" verse.
Keep posting and venting. It's really good for you and keeps you from internalizing everything and over analyzing.
Yes, you are right. I need to get it out, but I don't want to bore or wear out my friends who have been hearing about it for a year now. It's great to have a place where people really understand because they are going through it themselves!
Thank you so much.
Me:40, xH:41 M:19 T:21 D14, S10, D6 IDLYA bomb:12/22/06 OW bomb (21 yr. old employee):12/23/06 H move out 2/07, OW move in 5/07 D papers served 6/07 D final Nov. 26, 08 :-(
