Please help...need MLC advice

[mishka422]

I know I'm a bit of a control freak, and even though I keep turning it over to God, I keep trying to take it back from Him, too. Practice makes perfect, eventually, right?

(((tpaschal)))

I feel your pain in this. I haven't been dealing with this as long as you have but I can sympathize with your feelings! I too keep trying to take back what I have prayed so hard to turn over to God. Keep praying, but most of all.......BE STILL. Do not DO anything that you can't take back until you are sure that God has led you in that direction.

Know that even if you have to go through with the D to salvage your family financially that doesn't have to mean the end. D is paper, not emotion. Think of it as only a business transaction (easier said than done) but make sure that H has no doubt that you do not want this and are only agreeing in order to stabalize the life of your children as much as possible in this time of chaos.

Keep posting and venting. It's really good for you and keeps you from internalizing everything and over analyzing.