Meredith - your 5 years..

[Meredith]

It is ridiculously hard sometimes, isn't? Unfairly hard.

The thing is though, it gets better. . . . .someday

I love how you asked/answered the questions with your mom! That is so much more productive than calling H and you likely got the same answers anyhow. Does anyone else hate the sentence "I don't know" as much as I do? UGH.

The thing about divorce is, it's not a question of "do I, or do I not?" - that is more the question for buying produce this time of the year where I live. "Do I want to spend $6.00 on the nasty discombobulated strawberries for the kindergarten valentines day party?" is where we would employ this logic. (By the way, I did it). When it comes to divorce, the question becomes "how can I improve my life RIGHT NOW and for the future?"

Let's face it. As much as we absolutely hate to hear it, they (the confused spouses of the world) don't a have a third clue from Sunday what they want. It's pretty obvious with the marriage/OW combination. There isn't a logical answer for "Are you sure this is what you want". If you need an answer for that particular question I'll give it to you - NO. There, feel better?

So screw that noise. What can you do today to make your life a little bit more fun to live? What can you do to give yourself something to look forward to?

The answers will come, you can't force them. If you don't have a solid answer then it's not time for you to answer that question. Maybe on Deal or No Deal that logic doesn't apply, but since we're not - I can use it

Let's hash it out. What is the worst thing that could happen if you do go dark? If you go dark, what will keep you busy? What will be the trigger reaction when you want to go down a cheeseless tunnel?

What was the movie...something about a quilt...where the woman would throw a dish/plate/cup/saucer/whatever against the wall and then use the pieces and grout to add "tile" to her laundry room walls every time her philandering husband ticked her off? I always liked that movie, whatever it is Throw a good dish, Cagz!!!!