Help Me Act AS IF, Part 3

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[quote=seekpeaceofmind
Worst of all for me was seeing how much pain he was in and realizing that it was b/c our M was not a source of strength, satisfaction or anything positive for him. It may be that your fresh hurt is from seeing that you really can't change or wake him up . . . [/quote]

Exactly. It's awful to feel like H gets nothing from me. He's so stressed out about his job situation (ie no job) and our D11 has been incredibly challenging too. This morning I told him that it would be so nice if we could heal our R in the midst of everything else. No response of course.

He kissed me and said Happy Valentine's Day when he left this morning to take the kids to school, but I know it didn't "mean" anything. I so much want to tell him ILY today, but probably I shouldn't. I think he has felt unloved and rejected by me and that's what led to his own detachment. Now he's so detached he seems gone forever.

But maybe not, maybe not--I still have hope.