Talked with W tonight a little about her trip. She says it was good to spend 24 hours with herself and to visit some old places and process old feelings.
She said I looked tired so I told her that I didn't sleep much last night. I said I worried about her and that I'm not going to just stop caring about her. She said she spent the time alone and I didn't need to worry about her.
I told her that I am still dealing with a lot of the work and financial pressure and with our added 'situation' it's a lot of pain to deal with, that I don't want to hate her and I'm always going to care what happens to her.
She says in a very neutral tone, "Yes, this is very painful". I kind of felt like she was being a jerk and I said "it doesn't seem like it is for you". She said she didn't want to share her feelings with me right now because she's processing her own hurt.
She said she wasn't asking me to stop caring about her, just to no longer be married to her.
