Sorry you're hurting so badly right now. Your C is right that you have to mourn your H and your M. What you knew is gone. That doesn't mean there is no hope for a bright future (with or without him). That flame lives inside you and you either stoke it or not. I believe you will.
What he says about his plans, another person etc, you can only take with a grain of salt. He doing whatever and will it really help you somehow to know? I may be a bit of an odd bird, but I don't snoop and I don't ask. I see no advantage to me. I guess you could say that ultimately I'm being really selfish. Frankly, my dear.....I have enough on my plate.
Isolating yourself (whether here or at home) isn't going to help. You'd be surprised how reaching out to help someone else can help you. Take the time you need, but think about where you'd like to be in 6 months, a year, 2 years etc. how do you see yourself? How can you get there? Is there something I can do to help?
