Valentines day in 1982 was our first date and it is so very hard to see all the valentines things advertised.
I just want to sleep this day away.
Is this the way anniversary's feel?
I'll never make it.
I fessed up to him tonight since he will be movng out soon, how exactly I foiund out about the affair and the proof that I had.
I also fessed up about how he left a note pad paper from the other hotel room with her writing right on the counter.
I also am not covering for his family anymore and I told him how the affair news got around and who spread it.
It felt good not to be having lies because he always accused me of being sneaky and underhanded.
I told the truth and I said he can choose if he believes it or not.
I checked our joint account, which H doesn't deposit money in anymore,it is for the house bills . His paycheck now goes into another account, and h has been spending money crazy for the last 2 days.
H has spent over $200 at liquior store, same at groceries and $120 at the spa in town. I have not seen any of this stuff in the house.
I have a sneaky suspision there is someone in the wings.Unless these things turn up on valentines day I know there is some one else and he's gone..............
I asked him if there was anyone else and he said "no" I said "there is no other person" and he said "yea 50" what an a**
I am tring so hard to be strong and I can't.
I don't write to anyone here because I'm broken.
I can't fix myself let alone help out someone else.
Please,
E
"Sometimes in the winds of change, we find our true direction"