Found out on Sunday H has his own secret Cell, has put a bid on a reposessed house and is basically setting himself up for the big bye bye.
I knew it was coming and he said he was secret because he didn't want to hurt me.
Maybe so maybe no.
Was a very bad Monday at work.
When H mom and dad passed about 5 years ago, H brother bought and rents out house. BIL asked H if he wanted to buy it from him when all this started a year ago and H said no.
Well now offer is open again and i think H is going to take it.It is the house he grew up in.
Good because S 18 will be close enough to walk here. About an 30 min walk.
I hate the sneaking around.
Went to C today and she said something that hit really hard.
I have to mourn the loss of H as I knew him, like a death. Ouch i was crushed.
She said you have to let go of him and realize he is another person now and will be forever.
That crushed me and I guess I knew it but his body is still here on this earth to see and that makes it hard. Sooo hard.
It was a very rough day at work.
I felt so broken.
My heart is broken and so is my soul.
Today it was hard just for me to get through the day.
I just wanted to die and was crying so much at work today it looked as though I was hit. I was only it was in the heart.
I feel so empty and overwhelmed.
I bring my financial report to the lawyer on friday. I'm so alone......
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"Sometimes in the winds of change, we find our true direction"
