Priorities and tests of strength

[MJontheMend]

I don't think so. I personally think, having met you, that it would be completely and utterly beneath your dignity and HDness to ever have to charge for sex.

Yeah, it's highly doubtful that I could exchange sex for cash since I have a very hard time even exchanging it for security even though our culture promotes that kind of behavior with little sayings about milk and cows and double standards etc. Pretty much I only want to trade sex and affection for sexy and affectionate and vice versa. I told FSG that I wanted a cuddle-buddy with benefits and he asked me how that was different from a cuddly f*ck-buddy and then he said "Don't you think that someday you would just want me to be your man?"

I don't get from you that you hold the populace of 'men in general' in a cynical frame of mind. I'm not sure how your psyche is holding up... but... again, you are still in recovery mode... maybe someday you will get to the 'one bad apple spoils the barrel' mind frame... I hope not.

I'm not cynical about men in general. I think that it's at least half my fault that they can't be consistently sexual and affectionate in relation to me. Therefore, I don't blame them for the fact that I need to leave myself free to self-protect by hopping or swinging away. Still, I'm optimistic that I'll figure out how to handle myself better one of these days.