I have gotten some great advice and I appreciate it more than I can say.
I know I am a long way from where I need to be but I just keep trying to take the right steps. I am learning to grieve and to let my emotions out in private, it helps so much. I still become emotional when I talk with w, but I am trying to deal that.
For instance, last night I had a really bad run, came back with blood all over my clothes, depressed and just needed (I thought) to talk, and all I got out of her was anger. So I learned from that, today I was feeling kinda low and thought about calling her and I came on here, read and posted and that feeling passed.
So I take small steps and keep learning. I have some great teachers.
