Thanks Cat... you are in my prayers, I read your posts , I just dont post much.
BABBLING.............. I am sitting here in the sun *( well I am in my room and it is 13 degrees outside but I am in the sun no less*******) * and realizing it is ok to sit and just do ABSOLUTELY NOTHING EVERY ONCE in awhile. I went to workout this morning. Came home made myself something to eat. The day off and I am caught up on housework. So I came up to my room and wanted to just relax and then the sun started to shine on my face. Feels good, especially here in WI where in the winter the sun is scarce. YUCK!!!
I am feeling good today... I have a good friend who is going thru some hard times right now with her significant other and it is so heartbreaking..... I listen and dont offer much advice but I do tell her to stay strong and positive even though her heart is broken. Easier said than done I know but it still can be done,,
I also remember that I told my H recently that wether he was HAPPY, SAD ETC.ETC..... I wasn't going to get on board ( also easier said than done). But I have smiled thru my silent tears at times and gotten stronger. I hope to keep up like this.
Love is so hard and I have fallen on my face many times and you all have been here for me with hugs, love and 2x4s TOO!!!!! I am hoping he keeps doing this growing and when he gets home he is much better than he was the last time he was here. We talk alot more now and he is more open with me.
MY SIL tells me that his OW is married now.... that really doesnt mean sh*t to me, I wanted to say to her. But I acted as though what she was saying was just a normal convo. MY SIL likes to mean to me and pretend she likes me,,, yuck !!!!!!!!!!!!! MY SIL and former OW are best friends~ Lovely and at the same time I really could care less. I cant hold him tight enough to make sure he never strays, he needs to love me and be faithful on his own..... FEAR used to knock me out of the park..... I used to be paralyzed by her * THE OW* and little does my SIL know that her M means nothing to me,,, she cheated witH my h WHEN HE was married too. Is she trying to tell me the OW has morals now... PLEASE~ I was shocked by even myself when she mentioned her that it no longer hurt. I walked away from my SIL knowing I am strong and you cant take that from me ever again. My MIL too mentioned her when I was in Mexico, saying she respected me that is why she told OW , TO NOT VISIT WHILE I WAS THERE. She doesnt respect me she just likes to pretend. Her fa sad (spelling?) is paper thin... they ( SIL, MIL, ) used to enjoy walking all over me and laughing as they saw my pain...... not anymore.
........AND you know what it feels so d*mn good to be the Woman I am becoming. NO apologies... CLASSY but dont f*ck with me,,,, I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!! THOSE TWO CAN BE ROLLED INTO ONE, I NEVER KNEW THAT BEFORE....
Wow , had I only had all this strength 10 years ago. Need to keep working hard on me............ God bless.... Ali
