I'm curious as to what made you change your mind about a month ago. You were going to get divorced, and then you decided to recommit to your marriage. What changed in you to make you change?
fear of being alone, fear of hurting my children beyond repair, fear of becoming my mother and putting my children in the same situation i was in when she got divorced. i was sitting on my living room floor trying to organize christmas ornaments into separate piles for everyone, had one pile that i didn't know what to do with. the ones tha thave "The Klein's" on them, our first home....i freaked.
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take,rather by the moments that take our breath away. M38,H40 M14 K D11 S8 D - June 09
I had a night like that. At one point I was seriously considering moving to Colorado and living on my own there. My husband was very nice about the whole thing. It was to be a separation, not a divorce. And he kept asking me questions about what I would do, where we would live, gettng me to think of more and more details. We were lying in bed talking about it, and I was thinking hard, really imagining being alone with the children in another state, trying to support myself, etc. And I started hyperventilating. I suddenly couldn't breathe. And then I started sobbing. sobbing and hyperventilating. This had never happened to me before. I always thought of myself as very strong and able to face adversity. Anyway, I took the for sale sign off the house the next day.
That is essentially what happened - minus the hyperventilating thankfully. I just sat there i disbelief of what i had been doing and had a very open and honest converstion with H. I asked him to go out on a date with me that night. I said let's go, right now. called my parents to babysit and went to a new restaurant. we both felt like that was what we needed to do - go to a new restaurant to start new.
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take,rather by the moments that take our breath away. M38,H40 M14 K D11 S8 D - June 09
