Battlefield of the mind

[ntl]

I've prayed and cried out to the Lord, this is totally his fight, He'll either eventually send me my H in good shape, another man who will make me happy or his grace might have to suffice so I can be happy with my kids. Pray for me, I'm trying to put all my faith in God right now, I need His strenght badly.

Oh, cat. I hate this. I wish you had a whole, loving H that supported you and was there for you. Instead, you've got a shell of a man, consumed by uncertainty, addictive feelings for OW, and a very, very shaky understanding of morality.

I am thinking of you often and praying that YOU will be okay, no matter what. And I know already that you will be. I firmly believe God does not give us anything we cannot handle and that He, in his infinite wisdom, has a plan for us. All this hurt means something, cat. It is His will that we learn a lesson from the dark days (and the good days!) in our lives, and go forward in Him, loving and whole.

You're a good mother and wonderful person. H can't mess that up.

Regards,

ntl