No Expectations 4

[2ndnoah]

Hang in there Peace. Concentrate on you. Focus on you. You have a great attitude. We all have good days and bad. Keep doing what you are doing. He will wake up someday and realize what he has done and will miss the life he once had. Look forward to that day and it will get you through the hard times. I have this saying that seems to get me through some of those times. It goes like this.....If God brings it to you....He will get you through it.

I wish my hubby would come home. I miss him so. It is hard to use some of the techniques in the book when he has absolutely nothing to do with me. I hate this. I really hate this. I am so lost in every decision I seem to make since this all begin. Why is this happening? I hate MLC. I just wish hubby would wake up and realize what he is loosing. He has caused so much damage to our family. I just want the pain and hurt to stop for not only me but my boys.

When I use to smile, my whole face would light up. Now, my light is gone. I am a different person. One I do not recognize. Even my students will ask me what is wrong and why I look so sad. I have lost 54 pounds (size 4). My co-workers will say.....Girl your body looks great.....but your face and eyes are so sad. I don't want this. The hurt is so hard. I hate this!